bah

get really irritated with my beautiful family yesterday. trying not to let it get me down or take it personally but sometimes something little happens and you just want to curl into a ball and cry.
and i did.
but not for long, thankfully i fell asleep quickly and napped instead of being a big, sissy girl.
hooray naps.

art

after working on some projects for some friends (and now trying to brainstorm something for the new nursery in my brother in laws house) i have discovered how much i miss painting and getting to be creative. hopefully i'll be able to set aside time for myself to do some work in the future. it's like cheap(ish) in home therapy. and since most of these were done over a decade ago i know that the therapy lives on.

 my first initial, a quilt design (for my great grandmother), puzzle pieces(life is a puzzle), raindrops (i love the way water plays with light when it rains), rainbows (Gods promise that he will not destroy his people), and butterflies (personal transformation from something that felt it had no worth through meditation and reflection into something beautiful)

husbands christmakkah gift; all our important dates. 5.7.80- my birthday; 9.10.81- husbands bday; 12.23.05- proposal date; 3.10.07- wedding; 6.2.08- elijahs bday; 6.10.11- micahs bday

'across the universe' part of a collection of space/beatles themed projects

a cows thigh and hip bones

this was a boy meets girl project called "wobbly"

"eyes" this is a pencil and paper enlargement of a photo of courtney loves eyes. i'm not abig fan of hers but the picture was perfect for this project. thinking of doing another f the boys eyes for my bedroom

"baby adam" this was created specifically for a friends baby room. on the inside it says 'may you always have what you need'

there is another painting to be posted as soon as i can get with a friend to give her the anniversary painting. :)

underwear

was it about little boys spending a day without pants on that makes them think that they are getting away with something?
do little girls do this too?
elijah is screaming about how he's having a pants off dance off... i need to stop teaching him things.

sore

woke up this morning so super sore. i wondered if it was all the exercise, or perhaps the odd half sleep on the couch with the baby, or the odd passed out sleep in the bed with a 3 year old laying on my back.... turns out it's just lame girly-ness and i'm unexpectedly super early. i haven't started birth control since having micah but i think it may be time to look into it, just to get on a schedule. boo stupid body.

food

so my husband and i have started cutting into our sleep time at night by doing the p90x workout.. (ouch, btw) and it started me thinking on what we eat. how much good is working out going to be if i'm eating caramel popcorn and soda everyday? this has also come at the same time i received my first crock-pot (yeah!) so i am starting to go through my cook book and take out all the things i will never take the time to make (hazelnut crusted chicken with gorgonzola sauce), the things that are truly horrible for us (the peanut butter and bacon cookies are staying i don't care what anyone says), and add in new things, specifically crock pot choices. i'm hoping that i will start taking the time to really learn how to cook and take the time to make my family healthy meals (but mcnuggets are so handy!) and hopefully get elijah to try new things (he ate steak for the first time last night) so wish me luck on the sticking with the fitness and with the being a more responsible, health conscience cook! happy new year everyone!

cooking

i am not a big cooker. usually some pasta or raman noodles i added some extra stuff to. but i got a crockpot for christmakkah and am starting to compile recipes. the idea of it just cooking all day while i'm home with the boys and not have to take hours out of my life to cook makes me really happy... here's hoping a get some awesome ideas and put them to good use.

i'd rather...

be doing practically anything than watching more football. it is my husbands only day to sit around and watch what he wants and i want to spend time with him (which is why i'm not in the bedroom watching a movie) and so i'm forced to watch hours on end of football i couldn't possibly care about less. i'd really rather be playing the zelda game (NERD!!) but the wii is in the den and the tv in the bedroom isn't connected to a tv signal so it only does movies- can't kick the hubby in there. or i could be working on my husbands christmakkah present.. but since he's in the house it sorta limits my availability to do that. so i'm suck. on the couch. with bad tv announcers. blargle.