dear hulu..

i know its probably not really up to you and that the networks make these dumb choices but i really want to watch my shows. without cable you are best option available. but having to wait a month after the air date to see usa network programing and having shows from food network seem to pop up at random (some episodes are the day after some are 4 days later) is really frustrating at 3am... just saying.

a new frustration

i've added to my list of things that truly annoy me: when elijah asks for something specific to eat and then refuses to eat it... what a waste. i don't want to use the 'theres starving children in the sudan' speech with him but there are! hell, there are starving children down the street... oh how i with this was something i could teach a 3 year old but, alas, he's 3 and not likely to understand the concept.

Travel

Going on trips with little people is tiring. They think they should get new stuff cause they're on vacation, special bed times, new toys, different food. And then complain in a way ats a kin to showing off.... However, Elijah seems to have had a genuinely good time and I'm excited for all the pictures of my 2 little guys. Too bad neither of them are old enough to remember the coolness.

naps

elijah has decided that he is no longer going to be a nap taker... i am not thrilled about this decision. i know that its a sign of him growing up and i should be really excited about it...but... since i'm getting ready to be a stay at home mom i was really looking forward to the build in quiet time of his nap... not the ridiculous melt down i know will come every day at 730.... booo growing up.

so much...

so much going on these days. i keep thinking we're gonna have some down time but talking with my good friend samar tonight made me really notice that everything i have planned with my family is sort of right on top of each other... why wouldn't i give myself a little breathing room?
tomorrow we're going to get micahs room ready for him to move in (he's been sleeping in mama and dadas room), friday ricky and his dad are taking elijah to sea world in san antonio, saturday the boys and i leave for chicogo for a few days, the day after we get back ricky starts work, the next day i start my first day of work back from maternity leave and the boys will be in dallas (again), then we start our new lives- ricky working 8-15hours a day m-f and half a day saturday and me working 24 hours a day 5 days a week as a stay at home mom and 4-8  hours a day on the weekends at my paying job but still picking up the extra hours of the day as a mom.... yikes.

i suddenly feel very overwhelmed.

finally

we're now back in dallas and trying to get the boys (and ourselves) back on schedule. we shall see how this goes...
i'm currently typing and watching micah sleep... which will explain any typos i see when i get done typing this sentence... but he's so beautiful and peaceful... i wish i looked that way when i slept... i also just which that i slept.


8typos. :P

waking

i hate waking up to having an argument with my husband... especially when its over baby formula... seriously!?! do we not have other things we could discuss at 7am... like going back to sleep?

granted, figuring out what kind of formula is going to best for our littlest guy is a big deal and saying "well if he needs the special formula thats not really something we can afford" is a horribly stupid statement because if its what our son NEEDS we have to figure out a way to afford it in order to keep him healthy... but still couldn't this fight wait until i've at least put my glasses on or brushed my teeth?