hot

i'm not sure how people stand doing outdoor activities in this heat. i grew up here in texas and, except for the one year i lived in nyc and froze my ass off, have lived here my whole life. but only recently have i noticed just now hot it is. today i walked less than a mile from a car to the erwin center to watch the davis cup.. getting inside to the air conditioning was like a gift from god. i was a sweaty mess and stayed that way for the whole first match. perhaps its because i'm older, maybe its because i just had a baby and my hormones are still stuck in hot flash insanity mode.... whatever the reason, its fraking hot outside and i'm totally over it. i wonder where good, mild temperature year round places there are to live... cause i want to retire to one of these places... immediately.

tennis

my husband and father in law are out at the davis cup... they have currently been watching tennis for the last 4 hours... my husband is a tennis instructor and so he must find this very interesting but they plan on staying longer. thank goodness my mother in law is in town to help with the boys... or else the grocery shopping trip would have been much more of an adventure than i would have liked today.

futility

and so the no sleep continues... going to bed was such an awesome idea, i wish micah had thought so.  its amazing what you can do when you're breast feeding instead of bottle feeding... like typing a blog while watching x-files.

the episode i'm watching takes place as the ball is dropping bringing us into the year 2000 (hooray y2k insanity) and it makes me thing about what a difference a decade can make. i was unmarried, no children, still in school, studying musical theater.... i hadn't yet moved to new york city, hadn't been engaged to a man i would eventually leave behind... 9/11 hadn't yet happened, my grandmother was still alive. i had another life then and it felt like it was a lifetime ago. i can't imagine how different my life would be if i had stayed in nyc, married the first man i was engaged to, stayed in musical theater... i'm thankful for the life i had then because it lead me to the one i have now.
how different is your life now?

first time out

this is my very first entry in my very first blog.. such a strange thing to be committing ones thoughts so permanently into the world...
my beautiful boys are finally asleep and i feel i must jump on the opportunity to be asleep as well. this is a pretty common piece of advice for new parents... so why the hell am i up amusing you people?? off to bed :)