so big

took micah for his first haircut today. it breaks my heart that he's already big enough for that to be happening. something bittersweet about all these firsts because we don't plan on having anymore kids. now every first is also a last. it's the last first haircut. it's the last first solid food. it's the last first new tooth (which he still hasn't gotten) but it's exciting to see him grow up and become so big and crawl around chasing his brother but it also breaks my heart that soon i will no longer have a "baby" but a little boy. i'm not sure that i'm ready to let go of baby things... but "ready or not here we come"