today is my husbands 30th birthday and to celebrate we had dinner and drinks with friends last night followed by some alone time at juniors bar in downtown round rock and a night at a nearby hotel while my in-laws watched our kids. we had the availability to sleep all night and sleep late... so of course i was up at 5:45 thinking it was time to get up with micah for a feeding. then we were both up by 8:30am... and missing our kids.
and how did we spend my husbands birthday today? taking the boys to the park to play on the play ground and feed the ducks and playing with the puppies at "barktoberfest", eating bbq, taking naps and now he and his dad are on their way to the ut football game. tomorrow while the boys sleep he'll get a professional massage :)
moral of the story- even when we have free time or its our birthdays... its still all about our boys.
Saturday, September 10, 2011
Monday, August 29, 2011
describes my night...
every so often you come across a book that so accurately describes your life that its a little freaky. last night i was reminded of the book 'go the fuck to sleep' by adam mansbach (a wonderful gift from my mom). heres some of my favorite passages. enjoy:
'the windows are dark in the town, child. the whales huddle down in the deep. i'll read you one very last book if you swear you'll go the fuck to sleep.'
'the wind whispers soft through the grass, hon. the field mice, they make not a peep. its been thirty-eight minutes already. jesus christ, what the fuck? go to sleep.'
'the cubs and the lions are snoring, wrapped in a big snuggly heap. how come you can do all this other great shit but you can't lie the fuck down and sleep?'
'we're finally watching our movie. popcorn's in the microwave. beep. oh shit. goddamn it. you've gotta be kidding. come on, go the fuck back to sleep.'
ah, parenthood...
'the windows are dark in the town, child. the whales huddle down in the deep. i'll read you one very last book if you swear you'll go the fuck to sleep.'
'the wind whispers soft through the grass, hon. the field mice, they make not a peep. its been thirty-eight minutes already. jesus christ, what the fuck? go to sleep.'
'the cubs and the lions are snoring, wrapped in a big snuggly heap. how come you can do all this other great shit but you can't lie the fuck down and sleep?'
'we're finally watching our movie. popcorn's in the microwave. beep. oh shit. goddamn it. you've gotta be kidding. come on, go the fuck back to sleep.'
ah, parenthood...
Wednesday, August 24, 2011
endings
and so the time has come.. i am no longer a breast feeding mother...
this is a strange thing for me.
on one hand i'm totally excited. i get to drink and eat what i'd like and not worry about things like: it it too spicy for the baby? i can really start exercising (his one may seem weird but i know a lot of moms who's milk dried up after hard days of working out and i'm like the size of a small car these days- i'd like to correct that) i don't have to worry about finding a private place to pump or a relaxing chair to feed in. the feeding responsibilities (which have always been an 80/20 split) can now be split more evenly because i'm not a needed component any longer.
on the other hand i'm totally distraught. i no longer get to have my little one snuggled all close to me that way. i'm no longer the thing he needs to thrive (since breast milk is best). i'm now super worried about his digestion because of how much formula he'll be drinking. feeding is no longer just between me and my micah. and i will never get to experience it again (as ricky and i do not plan on having any more children).
i have never held back from the fact that i don't really like breast feeding. not because i don't understand its importance or because i'm super weirded out by having my kid eat from my breasts, but because i always found it slightly awkward and neither of my children were very good latchers. it also took FOREVER to feed that way. perhaps i have been lost to the land of instant gratification or i'm just super impatient.... or both. but i could pump in about 10 minutes, i could make a bottle of formula in about 1 1/2.. it took about 20 minutes, some times much much more, to feed from me. and when i feed brom a bottle i don't get blisters on my nipples.... just sayin. now i will get to have my body back just to me. its been almost a year (to the week) that i got pregnant and for the first time in 11 1/2 months i belong only to me (no matter what the hubby says).
while i was enjoying the extra calories being burned and the uterus shrinking benefits of breast feeding and i'm not looking forward to starting visits with 'aunt flo' again any time soon, its time. micah is young enough that he will not be upset by this and he takes to the bottle like a champ so no worries there. a friend, who has a son a few months older than micah, has more than her fair share of milk and her son does not take to the bottle like a champ.. or at all. so we are lucky enough to have been gifted with a entire drawer in our freezer full of her expressed milk. this will keep micah drinking more breast milk rather than formula (this is also a relief to our pocketbooks) and i'm so grateful that he will still be able to get the benefits of breast milk, even if its not mine.
i'm far more hormonal and upset about saying good-bye to breast feeding than i ever thought i would be.. but there it is.. i'm a sad camper....
but look who is here to cheer me up! mr. negra modelo! i've missed you too! now that i'm not breast feeding we can be friends again!
...now where are the limes?
this is a strange thing for me.
on one hand i'm totally excited. i get to drink and eat what i'd like and not worry about things like: it it too spicy for the baby? i can really start exercising (his one may seem weird but i know a lot of moms who's milk dried up after hard days of working out and i'm like the size of a small car these days- i'd like to correct that) i don't have to worry about finding a private place to pump or a relaxing chair to feed in. the feeding responsibilities (which have always been an 80/20 split) can now be split more evenly because i'm not a needed component any longer.
on the other hand i'm totally distraught. i no longer get to have my little one snuggled all close to me that way. i'm no longer the thing he needs to thrive (since breast milk is best). i'm now super worried about his digestion because of how much formula he'll be drinking. feeding is no longer just between me and my micah. and i will never get to experience it again (as ricky and i do not plan on having any more children).
i have never held back from the fact that i don't really like breast feeding. not because i don't understand its importance or because i'm super weirded out by having my kid eat from my breasts, but because i always found it slightly awkward and neither of my children were very good latchers. it also took FOREVER to feed that way. perhaps i have been lost to the land of instant gratification or i'm just super impatient.... or both. but i could pump in about 10 minutes, i could make a bottle of formula in about 1 1/2.. it took about 20 minutes, some times much much more, to feed from me. and when i feed brom a bottle i don't get blisters on my nipples.... just sayin. now i will get to have my body back just to me. its been almost a year (to the week) that i got pregnant and for the first time in 11 1/2 months i belong only to me (no matter what the hubby says).
while i was enjoying the extra calories being burned and the uterus shrinking benefits of breast feeding and i'm not looking forward to starting visits with 'aunt flo' again any time soon, its time. micah is young enough that he will not be upset by this and he takes to the bottle like a champ so no worries there. a friend, who has a son a few months older than micah, has more than her fair share of milk and her son does not take to the bottle like a champ.. or at all. so we are lucky enough to have been gifted with a entire drawer in our freezer full of her expressed milk. this will keep micah drinking more breast milk rather than formula (this is also a relief to our pocketbooks) and i'm so grateful that he will still be able to get the benefits of breast milk, even if its not mine.
i'm far more hormonal and upset about saying good-bye to breast feeding than i ever thought i would be.. but there it is.. i'm a sad camper....
but look who is here to cheer me up! mr. negra modelo! i've missed you too! now that i'm not breast feeding we can be friends again!
...now where are the limes?
Tuesday, August 23, 2011
midnight snack....
the next time i'm up late at night and needing something tasty and not made of chocolate....mmmm.. s'mores... i digress.. this is what i'm going to be eating:
What the Bleep Happened to my Rump Roast?: Killer Guacamole From Outer Space
a great alternative to the traditional. sounds super scrumptious. god i wish i had avocados in the house...
What the Bleep Happened to my Rump Roast?: Killer Guacamole From Outer Space
a great alternative to the traditional. sounds super scrumptious. god i wish i had avocados in the house...
sleep
for the first time my son micah (10 weeks) slept all night long.... this is an amazing morning for me... and yet somehow i'm still tired. granted not nearly as much as normal but while the one night of sleep was fan-freaking-tastic it still has not made a dent in the lack of sleep i've accrued in the last 2 months.. one day i will be back on track but for now, this was an incredible start!!
thanks baby micah!!!
Thursday, August 18, 2011
blargle
i see other women who seem so cut out to be stay at home moms... i would love to be one of them. on the other hand i am at home with my 2 beautiful sons, that i love, and i kinda hate it. while its giving me a lot of time to get laundry and dishes done (woo-hoo?) my lovely elijah is expressing what it is to (at the same time) revert because of a new sibling and go through the terrible threes. currently ricky is having to lay down with him to try and calm him down enough to not get sick... it won't last. i drove the boys to meet dada for lunch today and half way across the overpass from 35 to the tollway and had to pull over and get out of the car just to scream... yep, thats where i am in my job as a mom. the scream when no one else is around stage.
dear g-d i hope this passes soon.
dear g-d i hope this passes soon.
Wednesday, August 17, 2011
dear hulu..
i know its probably not really up to you and that the networks make these dumb choices but i really want to watch my shows. without cable you are best option available. but having to wait a month after the air date to see usa network programing and having shows from food network seem to pop up at random (some episodes are the day after some are 4 days later) is really frustrating at 3am... just saying.
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